18 January 2012

Poker face ~ Is it so hard?


Right from school days, my dad used to warn me about showing emotions in public. He was a very emotional person(See the WAS, but Now he has changed, God I pray I somehow learn the attitude from him) ..but he always used to advise me not to turn up like him….Its always that Different Emotions have been part and parcel of my face…

Happiness is shown in full intensity and so is sadness and so is ANGER !!..

So When I am in really bad mood, every person around me can make it out and ask me tones of questions back..I don’t like to answer them but I need to answer them..

I have met quite few people who are so grounded and just have the brick face to any and every situation they face..I used to judge that they are so fake.Things have changed slowly for me to realize that being grounded is what needed now and that's more harder to accomplish…When you don’t want people to question every inch of your life, Do not show what you have in mind

When I read about these factors in Web, its suggested to put emotions in a box , lock it and see it from third person perspective…Before I could even think to put it in a box and close virtually, my face would have shown zillion expressions..

Why is it so hard?



12 January 2012

Day to Day Notes 1


I thought tracking my progress on  weight loss online would help bring in more accountability for me , but I got busy to even start doing it!


2011 had been tough for me…Things did not go the way I wanted. But I fought harder every day. Lot of sinusoidal moods …Lot of people & things to handle..I was becoming  more grumpier than usual… my patience running out day by day…I could see myself changing from ‘easy-patient’ to ‘most-irritable’…I am sure being overwhelmed could break myself down in a short time...


Now I want to give myself a chance again this 2012 …I decluttered my mind and wanted to REALLY have a go at it again. I'll try HARDER this time!


I'll spend time for myself …That also means having more self-respect and saying NO (to others' wishes) sometimes..Which again points to be being BOLDER..The FEAR of Accusation/Confrontation scares me so much that I do lot of things  I do not want to do eventually end up spending less time for myself and on things that matters most for me.I read a book called Secret which emphasizes on our old saying “எண்ணமே  செயலாகும் ” …My parents have said this several times, but this book had recently made me to think every day about what I want to do.



Second thing is I want to look good or dress neat..I like to groom myself, but my dressing sense or colors coordination is not so sharp that I get lot of comments…I am trying to dress smart – match my salwars/accessories/hair style to something sharp and neat…


Hope to track more closely this time around