18 January 2012

Poker face ~ Is it so hard?

Right from school days, my dad used to warn me about showing emotions in public. He was a very emotional person(See the WAS, but Now he has changed, God I pray I somehow learn the attitude from him) ..but he always used to advise me not to turn up like him….Its always that Different Emotions have been part and parcel of my face…

Happiness is shown in full intensity and so is sadness and so is ANGER !!..

So When I am in really bad mood, every person around me can make it out and ask me tones of questions back..I don’t like to answer them but I need to answer them..

I have met quite few people who are so grounded and just have the brick face to any and every situation they face..I used to judge that they are so fake.Things have changed slowly for me to realize that being grounded is what needed now and that's more harder to accomplish…When you don’t want people to question every inch of your life, Do not show what you have in mind

When I read about these factors in Web, its suggested to put emotions in a box , lock it and see it from third person perspective…Before I could even think to put it in a box and close virtually, my face would have shown zillion expressions..

Why is it so hard?

12 January 2012

Day to Day Notes 1

I thought tracking my progress on  weight loss online would help bring in more accountability for me , but I got busy to even start doing it!

2011 had been tough for me…Things did not go the way I wanted. But I fought harder every day. Lot of sinusoidal moods …Lot of people & things to handle..I was becoming  more grumpier than usual… my patience running out day by day…I could see myself changing from ‘easy-patient’ to ‘most-irritable’…I am sure being overwhelmed could break myself down in a short time...

Now I want to give myself a chance again this 2012 …I decluttered my mind and wanted to REALLY have a go at it again. I'll try HARDER this time!

I'll spend time for myself …That also means having more self-respect and saying NO (to others' wishes) sometimes..Which again points to be being BOLDER..The FEAR of Accusation/Confrontation scares me so much that I do lot of things  I do not want to do eventually end up spending less time for myself and on things that matters most for me.I read a book called Secret which emphasizes on our old saying “எண்ணமே  செயலாகும் ” …My parents have said this several times, but this book had recently made me to think every day about what I want to do.

Second thing is I want to look good or dress neat..I like to groom myself, but my dressing sense or colors coordination is not so sharp that I get lot of comments…I am trying to dress smart – match my salwars/accessories/hair style to something sharp and neat…

Hope to track more closely this time around

21 October 2011

My weight loss diary -1

Coming back with extra energy now :-)

I am going to follow up weekly on the weight I want to shed as it has almost become a day dream now! I see lot of inspiring people - quite a few ladies - who look very young eventhough they are older & also after having babies. I feel the only way I will get something done is by starting to note down my progress here. I have in fact started logging my intake since 11th October. I have taken a vow not to eat sweets & chat-food (I gobble them a lot these days - comfort food for my stress). I am holding good for past 9 days with a few stray incidents of me giving in to sweets/chat ;-)

When it comes to exercising, I literally do not do anything these days! In next 7 days, my goal is to walk for an hour and/or play outdoor with Eshvar for an hour at least 4 times.

Will post my updates next week - and thus starts my journey towards better health!

24 May 2011

@ Native

Last 3 days were fun... The little boy had fun at his paternal grandparents home

We also went to our athankarai pilaiyar kovil and had a good family time with my maternal family. The son was uncontrollable that even a family of 10 could not manage him..He kept us on toes :-)

16 May 2011


Talking about enjoying, I son and my sis enjoyed thoroughly yesterday. We finally went to Express Avenue mall and had a good time.The mall is truly a higher class for people like us who bargain and shop...Its a total different world out there...Chennai is spending :-)

We also went to the Polar express - snow world @ EA. The boy had so much fun on the dance floor.He danced for more than half an hour with lot of Annas and Akkas..Was so happy to see the kid dancing to his heart's content.I will paste some pics soon :-)

Then we went to watch Rio-A normal movie. He was so amused to sit in dark and watch movie...Maybe I should have taken him to a normal movie rather than 3D as 3D glasses were too big for him..They do not have small for kids..He loved the popcorn so much and asked me after the movie"Amma,night agiduchaa amma" when lights were switched off(Heights of Innocence:-))

All in All After a Longggggggggg time , a well spent weekend :-)

09 May 2011


It has been a long time away from blogging...Life has been full of changes recently for me ....

Param has travelled to US and things had been changing continuously...he is in other part of world...and I & Eshvar are at our new residence etc.I worked with a packers and movers, found new tenants for our house to rent out, located a small & perfect house near my parents neighbourhood for us to move and actually managed the move myself with last day help from friends a few weeks back...I have done things which I have never tried before.....crazy couple of months!

            Changes & changes everywhere for a person like me who is too hesitant to even strike a conversation with a stranger! I think I did pretty well this time around...I like my new ride - a Scooty pep+...I like the freedom it gives me, though I hate the crazy traffic at Velachery...

          Talking of the son, he is a very nice boy as he took the changes so well..I am in fact little surprised as well as proud... I had to put him on a summer camp at velachery rather than his favorite Amelio day care - no problem! Super cool boy as he knows how to enjoy with what he has at the moment...But before I can finish my compliments for him, I have to say he now also knows how to throw a tantrum! I donno if that is due to him missing his dad or something else...But I am hoping its just a phase...So as per a good friend suggestion, I & Eshvar are playing jigsaw puzzle all time to just keep his attention on something entertaining and engrossing....And for the mother's day, I & son got a haircut..Getting compliments for the new look -may be I should say a new makeover ;-)

Talking of changes and myself, a good colleague of mine suggested to me that I take life too seriously don't spend time for myself..May be its true, life has been pretty hectic and hard for last 6 months with all these changes- unending trips to hospitals when loved ones got sick one after another and the travel. But now that things have settled down a bit, I hope to explore more the lighter side of life more and  get to enjoy it again!!

29 November 2010

Where is the party?

Last Saturday, we planned to celebrate LO's birthday with a small group of friends and relatives..
I just tried to make it little special...
My sis made few balls with color papers and I got some color balls from a shop..
I and Param hung it across the wall ..nearly took 3 hrs ;-)
Invited few friends..I was so happy my college friends could come...We actually met after
few years and it is so fun just to see them :-) careless gals to moms :-)
Tulika books were shared with LO's friends :-)

After the party had a poker night at home...Cousins were playing with full josh :-)

Overall an evening nicely spent with family and friends :-)